You note that installation of a suicide barrier at the Bloor Viaduct in Toronto merely caused people to go to other locations in Toronto to die by suicide. My failure as a person was responsible for my extreme step. I am now 49, and I fantasize about suicide knowing I will never actually do it but wishing it was an option. By rejecting non-essential cookies, Reddit may still use certain cookies to ensure the proper functionality of our platform. The Golden Gate net project is like putting a bandaid on an ulcer. Its great to hear that things are going well for you now. 19-year-old Sydney West was last seen Sept. 30. Thats why I searched for answers and I found this site. Dr. Freedenthal also is an associate professor at the University of Denver Graduate School of Social Work, and a psychotherapist and consultant in private practice. I have battled the thoughts of suicide for many years but after I had children those thoughts died. Your Privacy Choices (Opt Out of Sale/Targeted Ads). How Parents Can Support a Child With Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Survivor Stories Empowered Me to Live, How Ive Survived and Thrived with Suicidal Thoughts, A Personal Note to Readers of Speaking of Suicide, Helping the Suicidal Person: Tips and Techniques for Professionals, psychotherapist and consultant in private practice. I feel if I constantly feel like this over the years why dont I just die now? This site continues to distract me from my suicidal thoughts. There was a 44% increase in jumping suicides per year at nearby sites (95% CI 15% to 81%), but the net gain was a 28% reduction in all jumping suicides per year in the study cities (95% CI 13% to 40%).. It is believed that she had moved out of the dorms into an apartment with some friends near campus. Take a trip somewhere I mean what do you have to lose, on your journey to wherever you may see life worth living make yourself do something. Its a really simple concept. Dec. 11, 2019 Updated: Dec. 12, 2019 8:06 a.m. 5. She grew up in Pleasanton, CA and then moved to Chapel Hill, NC with her family during high school. West is 5'10" and slender at 130 pounds, with blue eyes and light brown hair. America feeds narcissistic women because their joy is in materialistic consumption, the backbone of this country that once believed life had a higher purpose. After my attempt at suicide, I tried to find information about my feelings and what others were feeling. That's a mind-blowing statement. He and his wife lived in Tracy and had an adorable . I woke up on my own after my first attempt. Now I wonder whether I also pressed reset on my brain. But the cameras lost sight of her because of heavy fog, making it impossible to know what happened. Children are a major reason for living for many people who battle suicidal thoughts. The longitude and latitude for the Bridge location is approximately: N 37 Degrees, 49 Minutes, 8.0 Seconds --- W 122 Degrees, 28 Minutes, 40.6 Seconds. 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There are many people with children whose pain or distorted thinking overrides all else, in spite of their best wishes. On the morning of September 30, 2020, Sydney took a ride share service to the Golden Gate Bridge, where she often went to jog, practice yoga, and exercise in nearby Crissy Field. My reason to live is so I dont hurt people who care but what if you have no one who cares there was a time I had no one it was only my stupidity that got the hospital aware of my attempt. Camera footage has been reviewed and interviews have been conducted among West's friends and acquaintances, but there are no leads. A missing person case has also been launched in Orange County, North Carolina, where West's family lives. Generally, research into method substitution has found that blocking access to a suicide method results in fewer suicides overall, even when taking into consideration those suicides by people who found other ways to die. Learn how your comment data is processed. When I woke up a day later, my depression had greatly improved. West, 20, grew up in Pleasanton, Calif. She was a star volleyball player at Foothill High School and loved singing at open mic nights. I couldnt pull all the way. Part of Audacy. Also, on the Resources page, I list a number of websites and other resources for people who have lost someone to suicide. I interviewed her parents.https://t.co/tiBGM53NZz pic.twitter.com/lvHh2cCrZg. East Bay Wine & Whimsy (Metaphysical Market), Before & After Photos Show CA's Snowpack, Reservoirs After Storms, Best Bay Area Sandwiches + Stranded Hiker Rescued: Saturday Smiles, Sprawling Estates, Suburban Dreams: 11 Featured Bay Area Homes, Berkeley Police Warn Of Vehicle Theft Rise, The Poop On Free-Range Cats And Your Lawn And Garden [Block Talk]. They would split the profits from the film 50/50. He traveled from L.A. to San Francisco days before the jump to prepare, and holed up in the Grand Southern Hotel on Mission Street with his cameraman to wait for a clear day so the footage would look beautiful when it was watched on news channels from coast to coast. Maybe some of the posts on this site could be helpful to him? I died that day too. Between 1937 and 2012, an estimated 1,400 bodies were recovered of people who had jumped from the Golden Gate Bridge, located in the San Francisco Bay Area in the United States.. / CBS San Francisco. Its complicated, Bay Area city cracks top 10 best for sleep: US News, JV talked about health struggles before disappearance, Martinez residents warned not to eat food grown in, Do Not Sell or Share My Personal Information. Overall, a meta-analysis of numerous studies that looked at bridges suicide barriers found them to be effective. She is described as a white female, 5'10" and weighing about 130 pounds. Good luck to you, Joan. Ive worked in Mental health, Ive lost a family member through suicide. She was at Crissy Field, near the bridge. San Francisco police and the Orange County Sheriffs Office in North Carolina did not immediately respond to a request for comment from SFGATE. It was apparently very foggy that morning. I dont understand why things are suddenly going so well for me though.. Youd think karma would hit me and make my life way worse but I guess the universe wants me alive for some reason? At 10 o'clock in the morning, Ken. September 30, 2020 was the last time anyone saw or heard from 19-year-old Sydney West. Whether ones anchor to life is children or some other passion, it is a gift to have a reason for living that outweighs suicidal thoughts. Have had lots of therapy after that. . PART OF AUDACY NEWS. Your battle won matters. While living in San Francisco West enjoyed singing and playing the piano for open mic nights around the city. West took a rideshare service to the Golden Gate Bridge; the driver cooperated with San Francisco police and is not believed to be a suspect. Why Prevent Suicide? The Golden Gate Bridge crosses the Golden Gate Strait and connects the City of San Francisco and the County of Marin to the north. The chances of surviving. Email: Andrew.Chamings@sfgate.com | Twitter: @AndrewChamings. But in reality, he cant know what the future holds. The family of a Sydney West, a 19-year-old Pleasanton native and former Foothill High School student, is again asking the public for any information about their daughters whereabouts leading up to her disappearance last month in San Francisco. In 2000, he actually did jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. A. Its always women telling men what we should be. God Bless You. 15, 12, by Americaoncoffee. We talked for a long time. Another possibility is that the instinct to live kicks in once someone comes close to dying. After the war, people were looking for entertainment in 1940's San Francisco, but TVs were not yet common in homes, public hangings were history and the 49ers hadnt joined the NFL yet. . I tried commiting suicide and ended up brain dead Then after I got out of the coma, I was put in rehab for 11 months where I kept trying to break my neck and die because I missed my fiance so much (he wasnt allowed to visit me because he had attempted suicide with me too since he didnt want to live without me). 10 Reasons Teens Avoid Telling Parents about Suicidal Thoughts. This Walking Pad treadmill made getting 10,000 steps a How to get tickets for Depeche Mode's new tour dates. I saw him hit the water like a bullet, said his wife. Dusty thought he could do the same but let everyone see it, and so employed the services of his pal, Hollywood cameraman Jose Guzman, to capture the jump on film. I address the myth of inevitable suicide in this post. For suicidal individuals and their loved ones, survivors, mental health professionals, & others who care, Although severe depression led him to jump off the bridge, Kevin Hines, Yet it gives me great hope that the vast majority of suicide attempt survivors remain just that survivors. And now Ive been out of rehab for 5 months and its weird because all a sudden everything is going my way now. He has no one else but me. They then examine the demographic characteristics of those who commit suicide from the bridge as well as the fatal attraction of the Golden Gate Bridge. Each. I agree with you completely, Anonymous. "I just want to reach out to all the folks that have been supporting us over the past almost month now, communicate that the support and the love that we get is just absolutely amazing," Wests dad, Jay West, said in the clip. I love to see that in the Comments section; I find it beautiful when people can connect in this way and, even more, when someone can tell another person what they havent believed for themselves. Lets get real here life sucks and its hard but dont give up. What happens to them afterward? document.getElementById( "ak_js_1" ).setAttribute( "value", ( new Date() ).getTime() ); This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Search within r/redsox. At times I hate myself. Rhodes, who also went by his native Navajo name Chief Sundown, was no stranger to danger. Growing up Sydney was described as a sweet and goofy girl who wasnt afraid of being herself. This is perhaps the best argument for preventing suicide. Its not always a change of mind when deciding not to jump its fear of failure, Hi Londa, I am not sure anybody really wants to die but I know many people, including myself, who are just sick and tired of living and want it to be over. Confessed to my dad and got shipped to a hospital. It seems to be an if all else fails, Ill just kill myself attempt to cope that gives me short-term comfort but itlike alcoholonly provides temporary relief and Im still left with my limited ability to cope with life. But it was my final stay at a state mental hospital when I began reading a book that finally spoke to me: Dying for a Drink, and for the first time in my life I recognized the fact that I was an alcoholic and that I had been treating major depression with a depressant. But overall, the evidence is that prevention is not simply a temporary delay of death. Or, at least, balanced! The family of Sydney West is offering a $25,000 reward for her return. Yet it gives me great hope that the vast majority of suicide attempt survivors remain just that survivors. Dressed in a blue sweatshirt, leggings and Vans slip-on sneakers,. I often want to jump off the bridge by my apartment. Which will turn into the vicious cycle of no job= no money, and no money = no job. I put up a front so my kids wont end up the same way. SF]. And I got very drunk every time I drank after that, which was quite often. She replied, She probably figured she could fix you. This was the beginning of my recognition of the fact that I wasnt the horrible person I made myself out to be, in fact, my story is very much like a lot of alcoholics Ive met. A jump off the Golden Gate Bridge takes around four seconds, during which a person will reach a speed of 80 mph before smashing into the water's surface like concrete. Rhodes press agent, Susan Todd, told reporters that Dusty had painstakingly calculated the speed of his fall, how he would hit the water and other details, as he did when he prepared for his movie stunts. Thanks again for your thoughtful comment. But as long as your solution is to kill yourself , you wont see them even if theyre right in front of you. Well living isnt what its cracked up to be. "Folks that have seen anything that resembles Sydney, we really want to collect information.". And half of people who die by suicide had attempted suicide at least once previously. Peace be with you Steven. He has visited mental hospitals several times since his jump. Such an assumption would be wrong. I fully expected to talk to her the next day, Jay West told KRON4. Her family launched a website,findsydneywest.com, that they hope will remind the community Sydney is still missing. Get browser notifications for breaking news, live events, and exclusive reporting. The four-second fall from the Golden Gate Bridge sends a person plunging 245 feet (75 m) at 75 miles per hour (121 km/h) to . I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. All 29 people who survived their suicide attempts off San Francisco's Golden Gate Bridge have said they regretted their decision as soon as they jumped. We cannot overlook that 10% of people who survive a suicide attempt do go on to die by suicide. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. The story of Kevin Hines demonstrates the clarity that can finally appear when someones life is on the line. Sydney West is from Chapel Hill, North Carolina, but also grew up in the Pleasanton area. Key to my recovery was becoming realistic about my part in creating the calamity called my life, but also needed to recognize others responsibilities as well. I know how hard it is. He struck the water with his face. Enter your email address to receive notifications by email of new posts. After all, they were intent on dying. Therapists and doctors may help provide relief. SFGATE's Editor-at-Large Andrew Chamings is a British writer in San Francisco. So when crazy people did crazy things in public places, excited crowds would gather. I feel fortunate and very grateful that so many individuals take their time and devote energy to sharing what they have experienced in their lives-it is so difficult for most people to understand in its wholeness-the value of life ..the science of every day living and the extreme depth and mystery and solstice to human beings, but one way to start understanding why people: innocents commit suicide is to acknowlege the exact factors of why a healthy person would just turn off the switch to existence. The entire bridge in covered with CCTV cameras monitored 24/7, and footage is retained for 6 months as it is federal land and monitored by Homeland Security. I know that this surprises many people. SAN FRANCISCO (CBS SF) The family of a UC Berkeley freshman who disappeared last September has offered a $10,000 reward for information in connection with the case. "Together we will find Sydney and bring her home," her mother said. I fantasize a lot about suicide. That is so sad, Julie. Come home.. The footage taken by Guzman didn't make the news, but was watched by a small, select group: the San Francisco coroners jury, which quickly ruled a case of accidental death from drowning a week later. To request removal of your name from an arrest report, submit these required items to arrestreports@patch.com. Anyone with information is asked to contact private investigator Scott Dudek at (925) 705-8328 or Dudek.associates@gmail.com. In the midst of a struggle with mental illness, Hines got a running start . Maybe I didnt want to think he could actually do it. This is certainly true for me: narcissistic mother and sister. All theses years following, I did not feel good about myself, am reunited with my nephew, reading up on how to talk to him. She attempted suicide three times and was in mental hospitals, etc. I just read your post. Ken Baldwin. Anyone with information about Sydneys whereabouts is asked to contact private investigator Scott Dudek by texting or calling 925-705-8328. If you want to talk with someone immediately by phone, text, or chat, please check out the Resources page. Im not sure that preventing suicide is such a noble act. Sydneyhas light brown hair and blue eyes. At approximately 6:45 am, Sydney was captured by cameras entering the Golden Gate Bridge. An estimated 1,600 people have committed suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, which has warnings but no barrier. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. I blame myself 100% for her suicide. The San Francisco Police Department's tip line can be reached at 415-575-4444. Theyre asking anyone "who may have been walking, biking, running, who commute over the bridge particularly Wednesday mornings at that time" to share information if they might have seen West or anything that can help locate the missing teen. Im sorry to hear of your loss And there ended Rhodes four-years-in-the-making attempt to wow crowds and find fame by jumping from the bridge into the bay. For example, he may be telling himself that the way he feels and is now is the way he will feel and be forever. Millions of eyes are going to locate her better than 20 sets, Jay West said. In February 2009, following the murder of a four-year-old girl who was thrown off the bridge by her father, the first stage of a temporary suicide barrier was erected on Westgate Bridge, constructed of concrete crash barriers topped with a welded mesh fence. You can find a life worth living, too, if you set your mind to finding solutions. Email: joshua.bote@sfgate.com and Signal: 707-742-3756, Six months after student's disappearance in San Francisco, family continues search, Horoscope for Saturday, 3/04/23 by Christopher Renstrom, Snowboarder dies at Tahoe ski resort following historic blizzard, West I-80 closed near Tahoe due to snow and 'multiple spinouts', Wife of Jeffrey Vandergrift issues somber update, Even Salesforces tower HQ isnt safe from office cuts, Inside Harry and Meghans favorite In-N-Out, Horoscope for Friday, 3/03/23 by Christopher Renstrom, Massive Lake Tahoe waterfront compound slashes price by $20M, This beloved East Bay hybrid cafe and bike shop is closing, Ja Morant says he'll get help after video shows apparent gun. Your message here is a good one. How many of the survivors were so injured by the attempt that they were unable to complete the act? But then they are stopped from jumping. What happens is if you dont kill yourself you spend the rest of your life being told you didnt mean it. I am a three time attempt suicide survivor and it has been a year since my last attempt and the ideation has pretty much left me. :A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters fromthe Golden Gate Bridge.. His father had died by suicide and even though I knew all of this, I couldnt see the forest through the trees. Upon its completion in 1937, it was the tallest and longest suspension bridge in the world. In 2000, he actually did jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. I said, Well, the night we met I got so drunk I passed out on the living room floor. I tried to help her, I really did Except I didnt. It happens. Anyone with information is asked to call 415-575-4444. I am dead broke, have exhausted both my savings and retirement stash, I am about to have my car repod and cant find a job. Any information could help so if you know anyone that was in that area around that time, please use contact information provided below. Required fields are marked *. She is from Chapel Hill, N.C. Ive been hospitalized 4 times in the past 6 weeks, after my 9th suicide attempt. And these different medications can be combined at various dosages. I had my suicidal thoughts since I was a child I lost my mum when I was 9 years old she took her own life and even now after my attempt I still dont know how to feel about what happened to her and what I have done to my self but I know I will have to find a way to live with the impact of my attempt and hopefully find a way to some sort of happiness, Please seek help, therapy to work through your trauma, it must be so hard to have lost your mum in this way and your nine year old self could only feel abandoned, not enough to have stopped her. He recovered physically, but mentally he is now depressed and on anti-depressants,has anxiety attacks, is too emotional for working, and keeps saying he wishes he had succeeded with his attempt as he feels a burden to everyone. I was driving toward the Hoover Dam bypass bridge from Memphis over 4 years ago to jump off. My family lied to me about basically everything relevant and valuable in life. It's not hard to kill yourself at the Golden Gate bridge. When I arrived at the #FindSydneyWest vigil in Pleasanton, I said whoever is singing has a beautiful voice. I know you mean well, but I always feel I wished I never survived. For example, upon hearing me take total responsibility for the failure of my first marriage a gifted woman who is a counselor and pastor said, I typically find that both parties share responsibility equally. But, as you said, the problem is also bigger than a question of means. Someone may have seen something -- any piece of information could help lead us to Sydney," parents Kimberly and Jay West said in a joint statement. Precious few people survive such a fall; the water about 200 feet below acts the same as concrete when a person lands on it at high speed. Parenthood does not protect everyone, though. Sydney West was last seen near the Golden Gate Bridge in the early morning hours of Sept. 30, walking near Crissy Field. Dialectical behavior therapy? Theres another post that might be helpful to you, too: You Cant Do Everything: Limitations in Helping a Suicidal Person. He had a gun in the house that he never used, was trying to sell, I didnt even think of it during this time. Her family still has hope that they will one day find her. My mother battled w depression I watched her battle hard all my life and still. Sydney Harbour Bridge has a suicide prevention barrier. Look at life this way Instead of allowing a human being to be a target almost like a bomb dropping on ringed target Simply flip the idea of all the violence and fear over..Draw a Large Heart then several hearts within Make a plan for dreams and plans Stick to it .. I will just speak it: Their lies destroyed me and there is no one on earth greater than you and those you love and want to protect. Kevin Briggs. Watching "The Bridge" -- a new documentary that captures 23 suicide jumps from the bridge . Throughout the years, Ive engaged in self-injurious behaviors. Turns out, it was a recording of Sydney singing. The. I used to believe my problems are so intractable that the only way out of my pain was suicide. Lately, the suicidal thoughts have permeated my brain. A little over four years ago I couldnt see an end to the emotional pain and despair I felt and became obsessed with thoughts of killing myself: another failed marriage, another lost job, another lost home, my girlfriend left me and just as we seemed to be getting back together died of a stroke. In 2013, 118 potential jumpers were talked down from their attempts and did not jump. Sometimes, life just sucks and the pain of living is unbearable. My name is Steven. As a teenager, I related so closely and had so many mixed emotions in comparing the results of my vs the characters attempts. What % of those people were financially ruined (ie dead broke) with no job or no home? There is a strength within you. We will never recover from it. I use to hate her for wanting to leave me, got diagnosed w depression at 15 have done so many therapy sessions. I saw the signs, the depression, his feelings of hopelessness, but somehow its easier to see the signs after it happens and not while you are in the throes of this emotional rollercoaster. I am a survivor as well of rape and spousal abuse, Am feeling empowered today, thanks to you. It may feel 100% true to him. Your comments are false. All clues so far, the family has revealed, have not been fruitful. Taking into account suicides that might have been missed by researchers, Dr. Seiden stated that 90% of people who tried to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge did not go on to die by suicide. Afterward, I was disgusted and angry. My brother did the same in 2002. ive suffered depression for Years, 2 suicide attempts in 2008. "We have a lot of people that are asking us for information.". Even though 2/3 are started by women, Virtually every article is written by women. Im all right, Im prepared for this! Dusty Rhodes yelled as he launched himself from the Golden Gate Bridge. Maybe in order to evade authorities who had refused permission to allow the jump legally 18 months earlier, he removed the weighted boots that were intended to keep him upright during the plunge. Will I Be Committed to a Mental Hospital if I Tell a Therapist about my Suicidal Thoughts? For Kevin Hines, the will to live kicked in immediately. Written forwww.speakingofsuicide.com. I wish everyone could receive this gift, and I am grateful that you and others have done so! A view of the Golden Gate Bridge with San Francisco behind it in January 1947. I warned her of the possible dangers of the physical response to discontinuance, not thinking of her emotional well being. Sydney West never returned home, and has not been heard from since. You provide inspiration to others who still are stuck in that hopelessness and despair. Saving Lives at the Golden Gate Bridge. San Francisco Police have previously said the teenager "is considered at risk due to depression." Suicide isnt an option, keep telling yourself that. The chances of surviving are less than 1.5%, and almost zero if the feet don't hit first. West, 19, disappeared on a foggy San Francisco morning, around 6:45 a.m. to 7 a.m. Wednesday, Sept. 30 on the Golden Gate Bridge. It is wonderful that having children seems to have inoculated you against suicidal thoughts. I wonder what psychotherapy he has tried. She is 5 10 tall and weighs 130 pounds. You can read more about this at http://www.bmj.com/content/341/bmj.c4447.
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